ain't easy ..

      what i've felt now is truly the best .yes ,life is not easy thing .thats why people always reminds to those people who forgot that we should appreciated the time ,the most memorable thing ,the most terrible thing that happen towards me . i'm glad to have 'him' into my life .i don't know why .he is the only person that i could count for it .life is not easy for me now ,because after this ,maybe you and i going to be in a seperated way .it's hard ,it's hurt .i really can't let you go ,but if this what we have ,then we just have to follow what is good for us .
life is such a drama thing .when you watched 'malay' dramas ,actually its just the same thing .its like a real life .i can bet you all that im right .
 life can be great and sometimes can be totally freaky ! i know .i did hurt a lot of people's feelings .i turn to be someone who is bad ,even people always thought i am the nicest person in this world .i've failed a lot in a relationship thing ,hurt many guys feelings but when i had 'him' into my life ,my lifes changed !yeaa ,being with him since 5nov2008 .now ,still with him ,thats what i said .life ain't easy if we're not appreciated someone who's already with you .i did !and i really dont wanna lose someone like him !definitely no !!and of course i did a lot of mistakes  .i'm sorry to those who i hurt his/her feelings .i know im just a normal person .i';m not a princess and i dont have any right to hurt you guys ,but i am truly sorry .wish you all could forgives me ;(
plus ,to my besties ,i know .my attitude sometimes making you guys feel irritated ,annoying , iknew it .
i know i'm not perfect but i really hope you could understand me and still be with me . sorry for the things that i lied ,that i hurt ,that i make you all feel sick of me ,i am sorry ;)
please !you guys are the most precious thing for me !and dont you guys leaves me !heart you more than you heart me !<33
 oh my !i've cried already .haha but its okay .i always oves to cry .thats why people called me soft-hearted and sensitive !yes ,i am too much emo in myself .
thats why people can't hurt my feelings . its not easy to be in this world ,i thought life is an amazing thing but its not like that .there's a lot of thing i have to faced .about life ,love everything .
  what can i say more is i wish i could just be new girl .i dont wanna be someone else ,and i dont wanna be me !i should appreciate!being appreciate to those who loves me ,no hurt peoples feelings .when i saw someone who is near to me ,gets hurt because of something who is really into her , looked at her deeply ,i've cried inside my heart .she makes me realised that i should not be like what she have to faced .be appreciated to someone who really want you ,do cared about you ,then you gonna be happy ,but why she felt like that ??she is perfect ,i bet lots of guys would love to have her as princess of their's life !please dont makes me felt like what she has to faced !aishaa !change now before its too late !apreciate to whomthat you had !
now i really realised in this life .what i saw its not really a good thing .next thing is really near to me ,he is someone's fiance ,but he is such a player .i can bet that his fiance doesn;t know about this matter .surely she's gonna be hurt .i dont understand .be friendly is not really too friendly ,but why her like that ?can't she  realised that she is too much treat him like that ?being sweet to him but he's already taken .thats why i guess you don't have a lot of girl's friend .yeaa ,i did realised that .i do hope that she's not that closed towards him cuz he's already taken and gonna get married one day ,and i heard this year .damn !i do hope his fiance knew about his attitude !i cahnge into something that i really hope can be for ever !i really loves you !and i promise i make you the only one for me !trust me !even all around me keep talking and talking i will proved to them !

p/s ; love can be hurt but its just a normal thing .love will go and die because god want us to see the fact thing that he is not the best thing .but when god gaves you the best ,appreciate him as long you can ;)

 aint no more ,
  aishaa ;)

About Her !

     love is such a beautiful feelings .thats showed how much she loves him !being loyal towards him ,gave him all of her heart to him ,and always be with him no matter in good or hard time .but why he did that to her ?she is so damn nice ,soft-hearted ,great ,sweet and i can bet a lot of guys loved to have her as a princess of guy's heart .he is fucking bad !he played her heart by being sweet and flirt with the other girl !isn't that will makes her heart feels totally hurt ??i never felt that .i never felt the way a guy cheated a girl !but i wish i will no faced the problem that she had now .i be with her ,wipe her tears when she's crying ,she need someone to talk to .i dont kno why he did that to her .she doesn't did any fault towards him .oh maybe !he doesnt feel grateful to had her as her girlfie !damn him !-.-
she is half perfect !nice to other people around her !i know she's more hurt because its a second time he hurt her feelings !you played my bff's heart ,ohh why ?!she is so nice ,she doesnt deserved to get this test .why always guy hurts woman's feelings?but not all guys .woman also can be like that .actually what can i say is girls and guys are same human beings .yea ,i hope her can make a good decision for her life !i'm just afraid she will hurt again if he played her for a third time !totally crazy!i do hope they could be back as usual ,really hoping but if he is not the one for her ,maybe god will make her believe that there will be someone more and much better for her .
think wisely ,girl !dont cry anymore because of him ,it's really not worth it ;)

you memang laa kan ?

  dh knp ni kan ?i've waited for you for an hour .and looks like its nothing .why you did this to me ?you make me waiting for you but at last ,you ignored me ;( how could you do that ?im hurt ,im sad ,but i cannot cry anymore !there's no more tears i can express for you .i tak penting lg ke ?i ni dh tk berharga lg ke ?or you nk jauh dgn i ni ?please laa !make it clear dgn i ;( jgn buat i mcm tk tntu arah fikir pasal you .bila i nak you ,you tk dgn i ,but when you need me whole day ,i always be there for you .no matter i busy ke apa ke ,i ada je kan dengan you .haaa !dah knp tiba tiba cmni ?you buat apa ,i taktau !you kerja bila kt mana pun i tktau ?

salah i ke sayang ?attitude i ni ke buat you nk mnjauh dgn i ?i knew it !
i ni ego ,selfih kn kn ?tk fhm you ea?sbb tu nk elakk dgn i ?!tolongg la !jgnn ..
every second i miss you ,tk bole !NOO!tk boleh you jauh dgn i,so tlg laa ,nk explanation ;(
  i important lg tk ntk you ?seriouslaa .plss .
you tk bole jmp i tkpe ,tp bgtau i sayang ,jgn buat i rasa i tk diperlukan lg ,
pleasee ,sunnyyyy ;(



ohhh meeee..
aishaa is not feeling well ;O

DAH KENAPA ??

  dah kenapa laa kan ?haha memang memang ,jap cam marah jap cam sayang jap macam haha entah ke apa apa ;) tak faham actually what i've felt towards you !but apa apa pun no HATRED la dengan you !semalam ,mcm apa je saya ni !saya paksa awak lol !saya paksa awak gila gila kan kan ?awak demam !
uishh !saya tak faham awak lerr -.- dah kenapa dgn saya ni ?uihh !
awak tolong laa faham !saya missing awak sangat laa !SEBAB TU  saya tak nak faham diri awak !
ok ok ,ye ye awak demam kan ?saya tahuu !
tp ,SORRY SAYANGG!saya tknk faham diri awak semalam ;(
saya ikut EGO saya kuat sangat ;) awak tau kan saya camana ??ego saya lebih dari awak :) tapi kan kan saya sayang awak je .maaf !
ehh saya cakap kat awak jgn cari saya lagi kan ,jgn 'contact' saya lg kan ?ehh !itu 'statement' yg tak betul n auta auww :)
mana bole saya kena jauh dgn awak !itu saya nak 'merajuk' n 'mengada' dgn awak sbb awak tknk dgn saya semalam tgh mlm ;( awak mara ?saya tauu .tapi saya silap .maaf laa yea yea ?bila awak call saya ,ehh saya sengaja tknk ngkat.saya merajuk lol .tp dlm hati saya hnya tuhan je tau betapa hati saya memerlukan awak ;)

    ehhhh !dah kenapa dgn saya buat awak cmni ?maaf !saya keras kepala !degil dan pentingkan diri !tapi ,awak nak saya lagi kan ?saya tahuu !awak sayang saya yg teramat :)
saya tk bole tido smalam =.='' sbb saya dh buat awak kn kn ?
    dh kenapa kan kan ?saya msg awak ,call awak ,tp awak tk respons !
smpai laa hari ini .baru awak call saya .!
eh eh saya dh mintak maaf !awak tau kan saya ni agak gila sikit bila dh missing awak sgt ;))
hee !saya sayang awak :)
   tp saya happy ntk awak auw auw :) ehehe sbb awak dh dpt kerja kan ?bgus laa :) tak saba la sya nk jmp awak lagi ,,sbb saya rindu masa saya tgok awak gelak n buat lawak!
cepatlaa ,masa cepat saya rindu awak !nak jmp awak ;)

:) my new fringe and hair :)

hee :) dh ptong rmbut lol :) my mum said bru laa nk=mpk cmmbudak budak :) hehe ye err ??sebab bila saya rmbut pnjg sangat org kata nmpk matured :) hee
so !this is new ME :)

heeee!i think i looks different lol !but the most important thing is i get a positive feedback about my newhair :)

okay ke ?nmpk mcm budak ke ?:DD

10FEB 2011 :)

 Yeeeaahh !i really loves him :) everytime when i'm with you sayang my feelings always get deeper n deeper !ohh my love !whats wrong with me ?am i being hypnothized by you ?ohh god !i hold you tight ,make you just stay with me ,followed whrever you go ,isnt that make any sense ?i wish i could just wake up ,but i am still awake !HAHA:DD i love you more than everything muhaimin :) i realised it !my feelings towards you is real :) im so happy the time  i went out dated with u :) you r so cute with your blue kemeja :) grey jeans ,with your camera sony hndbag ,haha you look awesome !u make my heart melt sayang :) i hold your hand ,and i make you just stay with me ,but when eric's come you go to him ,ohh my ;( sad for a while !where's your hand ?where's your love for me ?i wass speechless ,haha i merajuk dgn you :) busy main pool dgn eric until u buat tktau kan dgn i ;( sobb sobb ,i ate cake ,with saraa u dtg kat i 'b ,i nk skit ,suapkan >?' haha i buat taktau kan ,heh -.- i bengang lol dgn you sayang but act my heart just wanna say that 'sayang meh sini i suap ,sayang you too much laaa ;)) ' heheeh tp u tau kan i no EGO !!:D
lama nya i merajuk dgn you tk pjuk auww ;( sobb sobb again !
bilaaa dh out from that placed ,then you bru nk pjuk kn sayangg ,naughty baby !you buat tktau dgn i auww time you busy main pool now nk dgn i heh ?noo wayy !ambik kau !i mrrjukk gila gila dgn u :)
dh smpai dkt cotton on pujuk ehh trik ehh tgn i ,alololo u buat i rasa guilty laa b ,tau tau je kn i akan nak punya dgn you :) uishh !mehh laa i maafkn u :) hehe
sayngg u sgt laa , hee ,after that u kata u lapaaa ,meh meh i teman u mkn auww ,
hee u tye ea i lapar ke tk ,hee TAK !(saja auww i sbnarnya lapaa gilaa tp i nk kacau u mamam )
u beli chicken m,c deluxe :) nyummy lol :)
tgh you mkn ,hehe 'b ,i nk skit bole ?' nah !'
ishh ,u bg i mkn syur dia je !naughty lol ;)
tp tkpee ,u bg jgak knn i ngap burger you tuu :)
borak2 dgn you n eric :) hee pastuu pergi jalan2 smpai kt candy shop !hehe tringin nk mkngula gula kapas laa :) ,yayyy !dapt jgak :) thnk you saynggg :)
pastu masuk cotton on ,hee teman i beli barangg ,sayangg ..sorry buat you pening kepala teman i .hehe tp thankss auww !skirt tuu lawaa :)
nnti kua i pkai kay sayangg :) mwaah!
,mlm?tgok movies dgn baby ,sara,eric,mimi and afiq :) cite 3D!HAAHAAH:DD ambik kau !best laa sangat knonyaa :) tp whatever it is :) i hppy auww dgn you :) sangat !satu hari dgn you cm huishh :) happy :) i love you for ever wan mohd muhaimin :) mwahh mwahhh ;)

heeeheh that showed how much i love you muahimin :) mwahhh :)
xxoxox

damn !

what a life ! hmm totally disaster!sometimes i've felt that i really hate my life .its totally hurt when we stuck in something ,act its a problem and i have to faced it .it's really unfair towards me !but i guess its a test from a god i have to faced this matter.sometimes i wish i dont have anything except studies,myself and just me .plus,i dont feel like having a family is the best ever to me .maybe a lot of torture,hurting that happened towards my llife,its really damn it .i just felt that i wanna be alone ,no one stick with me,just ME !and its really hurt when someone who has a relationship with you for about 18years ,he doesnt have any trust,and always  look me down ,but when he had to be in a hard time ,he asked for my help .i guess its really unfair for me to be alive .haha i try to laugh as loud as i can ,i tried to take this matter as not a serious thing ,but when i've got to through this thing everyday and everyday of my life,my hearts felt shit ! in my heart i dont trust him ,i can't respect him as my important thing for my life,i just can call him 'suck' , 'annoying' ,' hypocrited' and so much of neg things for him !i wonder why i've felt like this.after what he did to her,to me he is nothing for me.wish i could go back to normal life !i dont ask too much ,i just want him to be an examples for them .and for me too .make me proud ,make peoples feel that he's there !make his brothers,sisters never look down towards him ,and mine .he doesnt realised it.all this time .they are nothing .look at her ,even she is not close with her siblings ,but what can i say .i've respect them a lot !cared each other,always be there when she needs help .but for this matter ,famliy thing ,he doesnt felt ashamed shared the story bout what he had to faced .why ca'nt hejust woke up ?!why can't he felt something ?!why and why ?why he doesnt want to be like another human being did something for us ?why ?i am too much depressed !seriously i am .i thought i could shared everythings towards you darl ,but i just can't .enough for you to knew him ,just like that.i'm afraid if you know what the most problem that i had to take it and put at my face,sure you will be shocked !there's a lot.a lot of things that i feel i want to do .runaway and leave this place asap !yeah ,nothing much for now ,i just need my grandmother,gives a big hug cuz i miss her a lot !but i know i have a responsible .i have to be here as long as i have to .i have to take care of her,and them .i have to .before any bad things happen .but i've really thankful to god !!:'(
yeahh ,thankss to you grandpa ,for giving all of this !if is not because of you ,a can really sure our life is going to be nothing .thank you so much,and i hope there will be a miracles .waiting for my result ,hoping for the best result,get a Uni ,and i will never see your face anymore!thats good for me and great for you . ;)