damn !

what a life ! hmm totally disaster!sometimes i've felt that i really hate my life .its totally hurt when we stuck in something ,act its a problem and i have to faced it .it's really unfair towards me !but i guess its a test from a god i have to faced this matter.sometimes i wish i dont have anything except studies,myself and just me .plus,i dont feel like having a family is the best ever to me .maybe a lot of torture,hurting that happened towards my llife,its really damn it .i just felt that i wanna be alone ,no one stick with me,just ME !and its really hurt when someone who has a relationship with you for about 18years ,he doesnt have any trust,and always  look me down ,but when he had to be in a hard time ,he asked for my help .i guess its really unfair for me to be alive .haha i try to laugh as loud as i can ,i tried to take this matter as not a serious thing ,but when i've got to through this thing everyday and everyday of my life,my hearts felt shit ! in my heart i dont trust him ,i can't respect him as my important thing for my life,i just can call him 'suck' , 'annoying' ,' hypocrited' and so much of neg things for him !i wonder why i've felt like this.after what he did to her,to me he is nothing for me.wish i could go back to normal life !i dont ask too much ,i just want him to be an examples for them .and for me too .make me proud ,make peoples feel that he's there !make his brothers,sisters never look down towards him ,and mine .he doesnt realised it.all this time .they are nothing .look at her ,even she is not close with her siblings ,but what can i say .i've respect them a lot !cared each other,always be there when she needs help .but for this matter ,famliy thing ,he doesnt felt ashamed shared the story bout what he had to faced .why ca'nt hejust woke up ?!why can't he felt something ?!why and why ?why he doesnt want to be like another human being did something for us ?why ?i am too much depressed !seriously i am .i thought i could shared everythings towards you darl ,but i just can't .enough for you to knew him ,just like that.i'm afraid if you know what the most problem that i had to take it and put at my face,sure you will be shocked !there's a lot.a lot of things that i feel i want to do .runaway and leave this place asap !yeah ,nothing much for now ,i just need my grandmother,gives a big hug cuz i miss her a lot !but i know i have a responsible .i have to be here as long as i have to .i have to take care of her,and them .i have to .before any bad things happen .but i've really thankful to god !!:'(
yeahh ,thankss to you grandpa ,for giving all of this !if is not because of you ,a can really sure our life is going to be nothing .thank you so much,and i hope there will be a miracles .waiting for my result ,hoping for the best result,get a Uni ,and i will never see your face anymore!thats good for me and great for you . ;)

its not a good feelings,but i hate you more !

yeah !what a life !today is not the best day for me ..hm what can i say is about the time when i'm working .yeahh hell !for the first i came to work ,its totally great and not much of stupid things happen .until the SUP asked me to accompany her to go outside the placed that i'm working to buy a food .yeah!totally damn !i've really don't wanna go but i have to .followed her makes me felt that 'drop faces' .the way she act infront of the people,she talked loudly,the way her dressed up really out of mind .yea,i had a lil conversation with kak yana .yeah,she's nice and amazing girl that i've been known .talk with her until that 'crazy old woman' called me to 'teman' her .damn it !
walked with her with the embrassement feelings and a lot of things that i wanna say to her ,but i just can't and i have to keep my mouth SHUT !huh
she bought her food,porridge and guess what ?she is trying to be niced with me by treating me bubble tee water .ahaha :D i'll just took it maa . . . its a rezeki .haha
then she took about an hour just too bought her food .then after we've been reached to the placed that i'm working ,kak yana and eiyz time to break !honestly i've really dont mind ifboth of them recess together ;)
yeaa,but you know la the SUP !she is fucking damn shit !suddenly nk showed her anger towards me !uhuh!how came she told me that kak yana tu muka pecah !damn her !she's not even realized on whta she had !she'll had nothing

i heart you guys a lot !(:

        my only bestfriends ;)

mimi azmi !

teha mahmud !

mira che' azmi

izrinda rosli !

azureen roslan !

sara khairy !                                                    



there all my everything !seriously i don't wanna lose them !so GOD please don't make my bestfriend be far far away from me!to mimi ily,youre sweet,gorgeous,lovely and what can i say that youre the best !you never hurt my feelings .and i am thankful for having you as my bff lol :)
hopefully you and AFIQ will be last long for ever ;)
to teha ily,you my pretty adorable babydoll friend!hee i love the way you smile and the way you cared about me .thanks for being my bff !i hope you will stick with youre honey as long as you can babe ;) to mira ily,i love youre characters .the way you talk the way you laugh the way you act ,ahaha seriously i like it !you always makes me felt that i am your truly bff !so do they all .tysm !:) to izrinda ily,i've been known you since i was form1 !and hell yeah !ilysm !haha i know that you are such an amazing bff that i have !always be with me when i'm sad ,heard my problems yeahh thanks a lot baby !please stick with AMER for ever !he loves you !trust me :) hee :D heart you more and more !;) to azureen ily,my bff too !love the way you act,your style,your funny attitude makes me really felt comfortable to be your besties !thanks for being the best good friends to me !ily ;) and lastly to sara ily,my cutie lil friend !ahaha ily too much !seriously you never makes my heart hurt and i like the way you talk .too sweet and hell yeahh youre fluffy !;)saraa the cutest bff that i ever had !ily ;)

to my dear SIX bff,if you ever read my blogg ,hee thanks !and i just hope you guys wont forget me and always called me as your BFF because i know that mimi teha mira eiyz aween & saraa 
 cannot be replaced!!! xoxo 

26 JAN !!:) at AEON :)

yeahh !today's plan at last jd la jugak !eiyz baby happy sangat cuz birthday dia dpt disambut dgn selamat !ahaha :D
mmg all of people yg involved semuanya happy dgn girang sekali :) thanks to amer,min,aween,mimi,mira,sara,teha,anem,eric,aimran, and afiq !!! :)
 its really an awesome just now !all happy just had a laugh and smile :)
      thanks to amer yang treat us papa john pizza's :) ,and of course thank god sempat beli cake for eiyz birthday !!;)
eventhough bought last minute ,at last sempat jgak !haha
yauww !mmg eiyz suprised sgt and tk sangka that birthday dia we all celebrated !thanks to ALL yg involved yeaa ;)
  and of course to those yg sponsored tha cakes,really damn appreciated !alhmdullilah ,my plan with my BFF mnjd kenyataan !lakonan gduh haha yg mcm 'real' akhirnya dh ketahui kbnaranya oleh eiyz !
so lets me shared sweet time birthday eiyz td
lets take a look at all the pic :)

amer with eiyz !sweet couple  ;)

aween ,teha ,aimran !!      

eiyz when the timed has come ...........

eiyz birthday cakes!i guess its a coffee cakes !:p

 

             eric and min :)                        

eiyzzz:)                                                            

saraa and mira ;)                                      

aishaa !on this pic ..yeah im ugly lol  ..

anem,ME,mira,eiyz,aween and teha !:)

my morkmates ;)

me and kak yana :)

me and kak yana !the best kawan sekerja la !:) seroiusly i like the way she act !naturally adorable :) loved to see her pretty faces laugh and haha damn !bilaa dia gelak je mmg funny sangat !boleh pecah perut uh :)

what can i say about my cutie sis ni she's nice !eaa,mmg tk tipu !i really can count on het whether i had any problems !she always stick with me wherever i really need help !seriously i dont wanna lose her as my sis !yea la ,sebab dh la tk ada kakak ,and tk perna rasa mcmana tk ada kakak aite .haha apa apa pun kak yanais the best sis yg oerna i knew !thanks to god for giving me a good friends like kak yana .i do hope kak yana always gonna be the best ever !even now she doesn't have any parents ,but i always thought her as my sister .ily kak yana and i hope one day thre will be someone that can take care of you ,hopefully ARIFF :)

LOVER ;)

 
    i love you wan mohd muhaimin bn wan mohd zani . . . .
   honestly i am so damn happy to be with you !i know you always cared about me ,and you will always be with me whenever i hurt or when i am happy ;)
i love the way you makes me laugh ,i like the way you smile :) i felt like i wanna kiss your cheek and hug you tightly !thanks for be with me min baby :) i know i always hurt your feelings but i want you to know that i love you today and always min :)
you are the only one who can understand me,always be with me time i needed .always helped me wherever i need helped.i love you alwayss min :) i wish i could always stay with me .and i've really hope that i can take cared of you ,makes you smiled all the time .i wish you could always stop my tears when i cried ,always makes me laugh by making a jokes :)
lol !there's so much thing i wanna say about you,but i guess thats all for now baby .i love you thnks for everything :)
   lovemissneed you always <3

my bff ;)

                           lalalove;)
                eiyz(yizzi) !saraa(sharaa) !me(aishaa) !aween(yauween) !mimi(yimmi) <3
 but this picture is incomplete without mira(yimira) ! and teha(yeteha)
  i love SIX of you !hug kisses;)

today :)

yeahh !what a life !just now wrote somes short novel .ahaha :DD yaww !not yet finished wrote about it .panjang lagi ni but i guess i need whole day to think and get a new ideas !!yea,today's eiyyzi birthday :) sweet 18 already :) she seems happy !haha maybe because of amer la kot.yea i'm happy too !great life today ,break dgn kak yana and paan !makan kat foodcourt :)
she is so damn pretty ,i mean kak yana !heart her as my sis ;) lol !paan as usual la .di mana ada kak yana di situ la ada nya paan ,haha :DD nak kata couple bukan auww but they seems really close !mcm couple ;) ohh myy !!!but the're not !they are like sisters and brothers :)
paan pun dh ada fiance and so do kak yana dh ada boyfie,Ariff ;)
yeaa suka tgok kak yana since last sat kot.happy memanjang !yealaa if hati bru bercinta ,tgh in 'love' la tu .sweet sgt bila tgok kak yana happy !and about the kak ina yang pling i annoying laaaa kan ,haha :pp dia pun samaa laa too !tgh in love dgn 'peronda' that i've really not sured of the name !but hell !tk perlu ntk tau laa .haha
today works ,best !even byk kali kena mara dgn sup tu ,yeah its a normal thing !mulut dia mmg ,sometimes she's ok but sometimes she is such a devil !haha really not sure of her true attitude !but the most important thing that she is such a selfish person !kdai mcm tunggang langgang because of her pun dia ttp akan blame others people !for her its a small thing but hey !smpai nak blame another people because of her work mmg melampau la !damn her !td kedai sepah sgt ,but hell !dia bole break plak and gayut !time tu dh la byk gila customers but i am the only one yg kena handle everything !its okay my time !just wait and see your day ,mmg laa kau kena !bukannya apa ,seriously she is not the type yg pndai nk jaga hati orang !but tkkn parents tk ajak adab and cara nk treat people ??haihh !hopefullly la dia berubah .change as someone yang better and better !amin
oh maii !act byk lg expression lol ;)
but i really need too go to sleep right now .tomorrow full day work!but bfore that happy birthday izrinda sazlini bt rosli !!my BFF for ever !
night bloggie ;)

xoxox

my own :)

sejuta rasa hati

bab 1

memang .. aku sangkakan hidup aku ini seindah bagaikan pelangi .Namun aku tak pasti apa agi dugaan yang bakal aku tempuhi. Aku hanya lah manusia biasa ,tidak dapat menduga apa yang berlaku dalam hidupku.aku merasakan hidup ku bagai kaca yang bakal terhempas,sedih mambayangi jiwa ku dalam diriku. Hidup aku tak seindah permata ,tak secantik pelangi .bukan aku cacat bukan lah aku tidak mempunyai wajah yg sempurna diberikan olehNya,cuma hidup aku yg amat aku sakiti,amat aku membenci ini lah membuatkan hidupku penuh dengan satu kekesalan .Namun begitu ,jika ini dinamakan takdir dan ketentuan yang diberikan oleh Nya,aku terima walau perit yang aku rasakan .

permulaannya disebabkan 'dia' .cinta pandang pertama bagaikan seorang gadis bertemu teruna nya.alangkah bahagianya hidup aku bila bertemu dengannya .Cinta yang amat kuat dan kesetiaan terhadap dirinya membuatkan aku alpa dan tidak berfikir dua kali mengetahui asal usul keluarganya.'dia' punya segalanya.kereta mewah bagaikan mempunyai pekerjaan yang ama bepangkat tinggi ,gaya segak yang menawan hati mana mana saja wanita yang melihatnya.Ia,dia lah segalanya.walau dulu ,aku pernah punya perasaan pada seorang lelaki sebelum dia ,namun cinta aku ini ditolak .namun aku tabah akan segalanya.lebih menyakitkan seluruh jiwa raga aku ini,faiz seorang lelaki yang aku anggap segalanya berakhir .aku menerima kad jemputan perkhahwinan dari seorang teman baik ku,deanna.alangah terkejut hati aku ,bagaikan api yang amat membara ,aku melihat tertera nama faiz di kad yang diberi oleh teman baikki.ya allah !memang cukup apa yang aku rasakan ini !sakit bukan kepalang .cukup lagi menyakitkan bahawa deanna tahu dari mula lagi aku menyimpan satu perasaan terhadap faiz.ini lah dugaan pertama yang harus aku alami dalm hidupku ini .

Celine Dion - I Love You

this songs really mean to me!makes me thinking of you baby :)
i am so in love with you !thanks for all this time !and i never forget three words that you always said to me .i love you baby !!:)

isnt that the hairstyles is damn COOL??oh aim gee !

i love those hairstyles but i dont know if i'm suit to be short hair or long hair !

love the fringe of this long hair !!:)

what a life !

oh aimmm gee <3 !!i've really want this tube !suka sangat sangat !myboyfie saud that he wants to buy for me !yeammy ,of course i want it soo badly !:DD
first time i saw this tube !damn !teruss nak try cuz i like it fucking damn much !ahaha i know its kinda rude using that 'words' but i really wanna em ! :)
so i just have to wait my baby to buy for me :)
love oh youu min <3

waiting for 26jan2010 :)

dear bloggie ;) hee today is 18jan .can't wait for 26jan !!i did it :) buat eiyz marah and no mood dengan i .memang dia marah sangat .yeah ,because i am the caused of the big fighting between mimi <3 and mira <3 !!hee :DD
actually there's nothing lol !=.=' blurr dahh ??ahaha berlakon gaduh saja dengan besties !its all for eiyz's birthday next week ion 26 of jan :) yeaa its noy my plan ,me and sara <3 .dia yg plan supaya ciptakan pergaduhan yang logic and sangat nampak REAL!!:DD
a really good ideas from sara boo :) love you babe !!
and not my besties yang involved semua ni ,but eiyz's boyfie AMER pun involved :)
yea ,pity him sebab eiyz marah kot bila AMER kononnya ignores her birthday .of course he won't do that .i know he loves eiyz too much !next ,eric min and maybe irsyad pun ada jugak on that day (26jan)
:) my plan with sara mmg dh 50% nak jadi ,now waiting for the big day :DD
eiyz boo !!sorry yeaa ,but i just want you to know that its a big suprise for you !for you birthday !!and of course me and youre besties nak buat paling best DAY for you baby !!:)
hopefully she's not mad with me and sara for planning this .haha
if marah pun me and sara hug&kisses her ,confirm she'll be fine !!
thats all for now ,tgl lg seven days :) heee wait and see eiyzz .
toodles ;)))