Justin Bieber ft. Jessica Jarrell Cover- Overboard by Gaby

why and why ? ;(

 seriously i tk perna brkira dgn you !if can i nk shared everything dgn you sayangg ;( you know what ?everything yg i ada ,i loved to shared with you !how could you say something like that to me ;( ? i felt awful ,and totally i tauu i am suck ;( but i do loves you !i sygg you only ;( how could you say like that to me? ;(
i tktauu whyy and why ;( i just need you in my life !please just say that you hate me !you dont love me !pleasee .. i felt im worse ,im a bad ;( i can't stop crying !seriusly i dh mcm crazy person crying because of your words !;( its really mean !;( i syg you sgt ,i tk kisah if i nk shared everything dgn you cuz i knew that you tk perna brkira dgn i ;( how could you say that i brkira dgn u ?b ,plss say that you mmg tk sygkn i lg ;( i tk perna nk cmtuu dgn you ;( i always nk you no matter in hard or good time !!knp you tuduh i cmtu ?;( i felt too sad ,
i really can't stop crying .its okay if you like to leave me over crying .i know you'd already sleep and you left me just like that .its okay .always going to be my fault .i know im bad ,im suck !then pleasee hate me if you can ,bacause i'm dying ,im sick ,im too much crying ,i felt hurt ,,
pleaseeeee ,,,, say that you hate me sayangg ,then y you accusing me ?( why and why ..



its okay ,no matter what happen i wont stop loving this guy .he's the only one for me .but i guess he dont cared about me ;(




hurt ,
aishaa..

its really hurt today ;(

 life is completely messed ! i dont know why i've felt this .i just can''t stop crying because of you ;( you never think of oit .because you just think that we can be for ever together .no we wont ;( its hurt you know when you do not changes yourself .even when i cried ,i hurt can't you just stay ?;(i felt suck !i wish i could exist ,get out from this world !pleasee ,i really need you now !its not hurt ,but its totally hurt !i really cn't stoip crying ;(
just ,you dont love me the same .please ignores me .dont you cared about me like the way you did to me now !pleasee ,you never think of the future !can we be together like now ?things change someday but you never realised that .one day when the times come ,you will losing me .aren't you happy ?smile ?feel glad ?but you will know that i've felt like i wanna die !can't breath like usual ;(
you just dont care for me now ,its okay .one day you gonna realise it .its okay ,there will be three for weeks from now ,you hurt me now !really hurt me now .i gave everything towards you ,i just hope that you will be good n happy with your life .please stay away from me ,ignores me ,its totally hurt right now ,i do hope you'll be good.please dont care about me .i hate you when you didi this to me ,and now you are selfish !;(
dont you dare near to me .i really hate you did this to me ,i cried until i really can't  stop cryingg .please i know you will be fine without me ;( i do loves you but pleasee go away ;( hate me ,,minn !i need you ,why you left me on the cold ;(

you are just too good to me ;)

its about what i've felt right now .hmm what can i say is i really can't let you go now,today,and for ever !!it's really insane !this feelings ,my heart my mind !oh my god !okay let me expressed what i've felt for now !honey !you are just too good to be with me !why and why and why ?!you treat me like a princess!you never wanted to dissapointed me ,dear !you helped me a lot ,you gave what i want !i asked for this ,you just 'okay'  .you won't hurt my feelings .sayang !you are soo nice to me ,but i treat you like something that really makes you felt irritated ,bored and completely annoying .i knew that .but you just 'tahan' je dgn all my 'kerenah' !ohh baby ;( i've really too appreciated laa dgn you .i mintk tuu ,you ada je nk bg i .aduii ;(
knp you tk perna mgecewakan sdkit titik pun dlm hidup i ?
seriusly ,while expressed what i've felt now .i mnangis tnda i happy yang teramat dlm hidup i sbb i got you !mmg i tk bole let you go and you pergi dgn orang lain !mmg tk bole .yourself and myself dh terbiasa being together .
i love you today ,but tomorrow i will love you more muhaimin !
<33

lamn !;(

    my birthday is coming this 8 of march .
what i want is my BESTFIRENDS to be with me ;(
i dont know if they all we'll be with me !hmm
what can i say is SARA ,AWEEN and TEHA !they all are really confirm .but mimi hmm she go to holyday ;( miraa ??no response from her !;(
eiyz ,she's got to work that day ,full time !!damn !;(
hmmm

my IDOL !

  what can i say about her is she is totally amazing !taylor swift is such a talented artist !she's got everything !damn !she is freakingly perfect ,
she wrote her own songs !alright ,let me share with you all when i started to adored her as my idol .its actually happen last two years at my class ,haha :DD
yeaa ,its totally such a fool !my cousins loves her first songs ,i think so ,its a teardrops on my guitar's songs .she always sang that song at the class .i asked whats that song and she said this songs is long time already played on the radio .ohh malunyaa sayaa !haha=.=''
it is because i rarely listened to the radios ,then i started to liking that songs ,then my bff said that there was a one songs that really makes me into it .i heard it for the very first time ,the title of the songs is 'lovestory' .i can bet that this songs is really a sweet songs written by her .i was quite shocked because this songs is actually a country songs because honestly i am not that into the country songs .but fortunately i loved it until now !haha
i keep in singing that songs .copying  the lyrics at the paper ,haha what laa mee !;)
then when  was in form5 and it's a last year ,i do hope that i can show my talent around me .
then one day ,i heard that there will be held an audition for a charity night .i was like ,'haha should i try for it ?' my sweet friends ,nik she asked me to tried for it .
yeahh ,there was a lot of test from god before i can make it to be on the stage at the day on the charity night.
firstly ,when the audtion time ,i am sick .i got fever and my voice turns into a monster !;( i cried and cried a lot !i told my dad that i really wanna go to the audition but my dad said that i can't sings ,seriusly my voice is harsh ,and it turns to toad ;( i just said to him that i wanna go .he sent me .when i've already been in school for the audition ,i felt scared .my whole blood stopped !i was thinking ,'should i just go or should i just watched the perfomanced from the other contestant ?' i should realised at that time ,my voice is the main problem that makes me can't sing that day .so  when i wanna got o the hall ,i saw jahirah with her friends .i told her about my problems and i asked them to told pn rhenukha that i really wanna go for the audition and i really hope she could gave me a chances to do the auditon ,not today but nextweek .she helped me .pn rhenuka met me and asked me to come to the hall nextweek .i was like , thanks to god and jahirah !yeaaa ,maybe i can have this chance to show my talent :)
after that , i take cared of myself by taking care of my health .no iced ,just plain water .i got into this as a really serious matter ,because i guess this is the only way for me to show my talent infront of the audienced .but !please do not be too hope .quite scared if im not selected to be performed at the charity night .
yes ,the day had come .its friday ,my dad will came late because he got to go to the mosque for friday prayed .okay ,chill aishaa !now im in the hall .i saw students from interact club and the contestant .hmm ,i felt soo down .they all looked at me with a kind of look .i've felt very small when i stayed there .then .pn renukha called my name and asked me to started the audition .yeah ,i am the first one .but im not alone .i go there with miza ,my classmates ,my cousins besties ! yeahh ,im on the stage at my school's hall !haha i sang two songs .first songs is lovestory by taylor swift .i looked at pn rhenukha and the audienced .yeahh ,they all are staring me . i was like ,'hmm ,maybe they appreciated the way i sang ' haha thats what my mind keep on saying ;)
then pn renukha asked me to sang another songs .now i sang the way i loved you by taylor swift too !haha she do liked me !my voice .and i've been selected .yeahh !its really worth it .i got a lot of test from god and at last ,i got it !charity night ,here i come !haha
 okay ,now my dreams are half-fullfied .i'm happy but i dont know if my parents can eccept my involved in singing thing .i know ,i should consentrate on SPM thing but its just like ,i really into singing thing. so this is the only way to proved to all ,that i am talented ;)
okay !today i thinks is 24 april !the day i have to show my talent to the audienced .nervous+scared ,thats what i've felt at that time .but its ok .there is no more practiced .i just try to sang 'live' with the band just once !!oh my !i hope there will be a chemistry between me and the ACS band ;) sang lovestory live !it's my dreams :) and also 'dan sebenarnya' songs by yuna :) acoustic version ;))
okay ,that day i wore a white gold dressed .put a make up ,wore high-heels makes me looked diff !heh
you know what ?i've really hate make up and high heel's thing but for this perfomanced i have to sacrificed and be a new 'aishaa' :D
haha ;)   alright !it's my turn now to performed .i heard maha letchumi called my name !oh gucci !dup dap dup dap my heart ..
lulu accompany me behind the staged and gave me full of supported!really thanked to her :)
okay .i did performed .looked at all the audienced ,smile and cheer for me :) yeah it's a great feelings at that time .i sang with the expression until my account teacher ,miss suganthi are really suprised that i can sang !:) don't be dear teacher .i really can sang but that day is the first time i show my talent at the K.E.C club ;) heee
yea!i saw pn bahariah too . she siled and really i guess she do liked me .thats why when she had to leaved the school for ever ,she wanted me to performed and sangs for her .its for the last time .gonna miss you dear pn bahariah !;)
okay okay ,next songs its a malay songs !ohh my ,i heard a scream and a cheered from the audienced !okay now i knew why !its my cousins ,fir !he's coming to me ,coming to the staged when the time  i performed .haha :D thats soo sweet dear cousins !
he gaves me roses .. LOL!thanks thanks !he did supported me a lot !really can count on you dear cousin :)
yehh ,i will never forgot that time :)

alright ,already performed then straight away i go to JJ .makan time !with my honey ,MIN :)
he waited for me for so long .haha i know you missed me hunn ;)
thanks for accompany at mcd .makan hehe ;)
then both of us go to the rooftoop met my bff eiyz and erna with theirs boyfie :)
hehe what a beutiful view at the rooftoop !its night and i really had a wonderful time with you .hehe
i asked you to danced ,and you want !i missed that time .the way you hold me tight ,the way you say that you loved me always ,and the way you makes me wanna laugh all the time .you are just too good to be with me !thanks sayang <33

fabians besties :)

Aien elmo ;)
 amazing girl ,sweet ,pretty ,awesome and of course she is such a nice person ,eventhough i dont really get to know with her ,i know she can be trusted and of course she is such a cool person !:)
 lucky to have her as a friends !i wishi could get to know more about you dear :)
thanks for being such a caring person !
i love you dear :) you are really sweet babe !i hope you will always going to be the best and stick with your loves one as long as you can !but make it for ever hunn !:)  xoxox

Anne Zakaria ;)
   this girl is such a caring person !really comfortable to be friends with you dear ! first time i met you ,oh my !you are gorgeous babe!;) jelous i auww <33 and of course you show the wy you cared towarsd me by treat me a drink !haha :DD i was like she is damn sweet !yeahh ,anne is adorable and nice !babe !lucky to get to know with you .i really hope that ine day i could hang out with you dear,mybe shop together boo :)
i heart you dearly ,anne !xoxox

Niely Adnan ;)

lovable friends !haha first time i met you ,i thought you are such a stuck up person ,but actually totally you are not !:) hee happy to be part of you baby !

wanna know why ?i'm happy because you trusted on me .you just shared your problems towards me .that shows how much you trust on me dear :)

thanks for giving me chances becaming your friends !hope to get to know more about you dear !ily .xoxox

             Melissa Anne Kamarulzaman ;)

this cuty girl really into me ;)

i loves all about her !she looks so perfect !she's gorgeous ,hot and of course i do loved her hair !her fringe !ohh myy you !you are pretttyyy laa girl !

i know i baru je be friends dgn you but you are part of my life now ,i hope i can hang out with you one day hunn ;)

i heart you alwayss .xoxox

p/s : hope four of you guys will be my close friends one day !i heart you four a lott !dont lost contact yeaa ;) i do loves you guys !

now ,you FOUR are officially part of my life !!

;DD

ain't easy ..

      what i've felt now is truly the best .yes ,life is not easy thing .thats why people always reminds to those people who forgot that we should appreciated the time ,the most memorable thing ,the most terrible thing that happen towards me . i'm glad to have 'him' into my life .i don't know why .he is the only person that i could count for it .life is not easy for me now ,because after this ,maybe you and i going to be in a seperated way .it's hard ,it's hurt .i really can't let you go ,but if this what we have ,then we just have to follow what is good for us .
life is such a drama thing .when you watched 'malay' dramas ,actually its just the same thing .its like a real life .i can bet you all that im right .
 life can be great and sometimes can be totally freaky ! i know .i did hurt a lot of people's feelings .i turn to be someone who is bad ,even people always thought i am the nicest person in this world .i've failed a lot in a relationship thing ,hurt many guys feelings but when i had 'him' into my life ,my lifes changed !yeaa ,being with him since 5nov2008 .now ,still with him ,thats what i said .life ain't easy if we're not appreciated someone who's already with you .i did !and i really dont wanna lose someone like him !definitely no !!and of course i did a lot of mistakes  .i'm sorry to those who i hurt his/her feelings .i know im just a normal person .i';m not a princess and i dont have any right to hurt you guys ,but i am truly sorry .wish you all could forgives me ;(
plus ,to my besties ,i know .my attitude sometimes making you guys feel irritated ,annoying , iknew it .
i know i'm not perfect but i really hope you could understand me and still be with me . sorry for the things that i lied ,that i hurt ,that i make you all feel sick of me ,i am sorry ;)
please !you guys are the most precious thing for me !and dont you guys leaves me !heart you more than you heart me !<33
 oh my !i've cried already .haha but its okay .i always oves to cry .thats why people called me soft-hearted and sensitive !yes ,i am too much emo in myself .
thats why people can't hurt my feelings . its not easy to be in this world ,i thought life is an amazing thing but its not like that .there's a lot of thing i have to faced .about life ,love everything .
  what can i say more is i wish i could just be new girl .i dont wanna be someone else ,and i dont wanna be me !i should appreciate!being appreciate to those who loves me ,no hurt peoples feelings .when i saw someone who is near to me ,gets hurt because of something who is really into her , looked at her deeply ,i've cried inside my heart .she makes me realised that i should not be like what she have to faced .be appreciated to someone who really want you ,do cared about you ,then you gonna be happy ,but why she felt like that ??she is perfect ,i bet lots of guys would love to have her as princess of their's life !please dont makes me felt like what she has to faced !aishaa !change now before its too late !apreciate to whomthat you had !
now i really realised in this life .what i saw its not really a good thing .next thing is really near to me ,he is someone's fiance ,but he is such a player .i can bet that his fiance doesn;t know about this matter .surely she's gonna be hurt .i dont understand .be friendly is not really too friendly ,but why her like that ?can't she  realised that she is too much treat him like that ?being sweet to him but he's already taken .thats why i guess you don't have a lot of girl's friend .yeaa ,i did realised that .i do hope that she's not that closed towards him cuz he's already taken and gonna get married one day ,and i heard this year .damn !i do hope his fiance knew about his attitude !i cahnge into something that i really hope can be for ever !i really loves you !and i promise i make you the only one for me !trust me !even all around me keep talking and talking i will proved to them !

p/s ; love can be hurt but its just a normal thing .love will go and die because god want us to see the fact thing that he is not the best thing .but when god gaves you the best ,appreciate him as long you can ;)

 aint no more ,
  aishaa ;)

About Her !

     love is such a beautiful feelings .thats showed how much she loves him !being loyal towards him ,gave him all of her heart to him ,and always be with him no matter in good or hard time .but why he did that to her ?she is so damn nice ,soft-hearted ,great ,sweet and i can bet a lot of guys loved to have her as a princess of guy's heart .he is fucking bad !he played her heart by being sweet and flirt with the other girl !isn't that will makes her heart feels totally hurt ??i never felt that .i never felt the way a guy cheated a girl !but i wish i will no faced the problem that she had now .i be with her ,wipe her tears when she's crying ,she need someone to talk to .i dont kno why he did that to her .she doesn't did any fault towards him .oh maybe !he doesnt feel grateful to had her as her girlfie !damn him !-.-
she is half perfect !nice to other people around her !i know she's more hurt because its a second time he hurt her feelings !you played my bff's heart ,ohh why ?!she is so nice ,she doesnt deserved to get this test .why always guy hurts woman's feelings?but not all guys .woman also can be like that .actually what can i say is girls and guys are same human beings .yea ,i hope her can make a good decision for her life !i'm just afraid she will hurt again if he played her for a third time !totally crazy!i do hope they could be back as usual ,really hoping but if he is not the one for her ,maybe god will make her believe that there will be someone more and much better for her .
think wisely ,girl !dont cry anymore because of him ,it's really not worth it ;)

you memang laa kan ?

  dh knp ni kan ?i've waited for you for an hour .and looks like its nothing .why you did this to me ?you make me waiting for you but at last ,you ignored me ;( how could you do that ?im hurt ,im sad ,but i cannot cry anymore !there's no more tears i can express for you .i tak penting lg ke ?i ni dh tk berharga lg ke ?or you nk jauh dgn i ni ?please laa !make it clear dgn i ;( jgn buat i mcm tk tntu arah fikir pasal you .bila i nak you ,you tk dgn i ,but when you need me whole day ,i always be there for you .no matter i busy ke apa ke ,i ada je kan dengan you .haaa !dah knp tiba tiba cmni ?you buat apa ,i taktau !you kerja bila kt mana pun i tktau ?

salah i ke sayang ?attitude i ni ke buat you nk mnjauh dgn i ?i knew it !
i ni ego ,selfih kn kn ?tk fhm you ea?sbb tu nk elakk dgn i ?!tolongg la !jgnn ..
every second i miss you ,tk bole !NOO!tk boleh you jauh dgn i,so tlg laa ,nk explanation ;(
  i important lg tk ntk you ?seriouslaa .plss .
you tk bole jmp i tkpe ,tp bgtau i sayang ,jgn buat i rasa i tk diperlukan lg ,
pleasee ,sunnyyyy ;(



ohhh meeee..
aishaa is not feeling well ;O

DAH KENAPA ??

  dah kenapa laa kan ?haha memang memang ,jap cam marah jap cam sayang jap macam haha entah ke apa apa ;) tak faham actually what i've felt towards you !but apa apa pun no HATRED la dengan you !semalam ,mcm apa je saya ni !saya paksa awak lol !saya paksa awak gila gila kan kan ?awak demam !
uishh !saya tak faham awak lerr -.- dah kenapa dgn saya ni ?uihh !
awak tolong laa faham !saya missing awak sangat laa !SEBAB TU  saya tak nak faham diri awak !
ok ok ,ye ye awak demam kan ?saya tahuu !
tp ,SORRY SAYANGG!saya tknk faham diri awak semalam ;(
saya ikut EGO saya kuat sangat ;) awak tau kan saya camana ??ego saya lebih dari awak :) tapi kan kan saya sayang awak je .maaf !
ehh saya cakap kat awak jgn cari saya lagi kan ,jgn 'contact' saya lg kan ?ehh !itu 'statement' yg tak betul n auta auww :)
mana bole saya kena jauh dgn awak !itu saya nak 'merajuk' n 'mengada' dgn awak sbb awak tknk dgn saya semalam tgh mlm ;( awak mara ?saya tauu .tapi saya silap .maaf laa yea yea ?bila awak call saya ,ehh saya sengaja tknk ngkat.saya merajuk lol .tp dlm hati saya hnya tuhan je tau betapa hati saya memerlukan awak ;)

    ehhhh !dah kenapa dgn saya buat awak cmni ?maaf !saya keras kepala !degil dan pentingkan diri !tapi ,awak nak saya lagi kan ?saya tahuu !awak sayang saya yg teramat :)
saya tk bole tido smalam =.='' sbb saya dh buat awak kn kn ?
    dh kenapa kan kan ?saya msg awak ,call awak ,tp awak tk respons !
smpai laa hari ini .baru awak call saya .!
eh eh saya dh mintak maaf !awak tau kan saya ni agak gila sikit bila dh missing awak sgt ;))
hee !saya sayang awak :)
   tp saya happy ntk awak auw auw :) ehehe sbb awak dh dpt kerja kan ?bgus laa :) tak saba la sya nk jmp awak lagi ,,sbb saya rindu masa saya tgok awak gelak n buat lawak!
cepatlaa ,masa cepat saya rindu awak !nak jmp awak ;)

:) my new fringe and hair :)

hee :) dh ptong rmbut lol :) my mum said bru laa nk=mpk cmmbudak budak :) hehe ye err ??sebab bila saya rmbut pnjg sangat org kata nmpk matured :) hee
so !this is new ME :)

heeee!i think i looks different lol !but the most important thing is i get a positive feedback about my newhair :)

okay ke ?nmpk mcm budak ke ?:DD

10FEB 2011 :)

 Yeeeaahh !i really loves him :) everytime when i'm with you sayang my feelings always get deeper n deeper !ohh my love !whats wrong with me ?am i being hypnothized by you ?ohh god !i hold you tight ,make you just stay with me ,followed whrever you go ,isnt that make any sense ?i wish i could just wake up ,but i am still awake !HAHA:DD i love you more than everything muhaimin :) i realised it !my feelings towards you is real :) im so happy the time  i went out dated with u :) you r so cute with your blue kemeja :) grey jeans ,with your camera sony hndbag ,haha you look awesome !u make my heart melt sayang :) i hold your hand ,and i make you just stay with me ,but when eric's come you go to him ,ohh my ;( sad for a while !where's your hand ?where's your love for me ?i wass speechless ,haha i merajuk dgn you :) busy main pool dgn eric until u buat tktau kan dgn i ;( sobb sobb ,i ate cake ,with saraa u dtg kat i 'b ,i nk skit ,suapkan >?' haha i buat taktau kan ,heh -.- i bengang lol dgn you sayang but act my heart just wanna say that 'sayang meh sini i suap ,sayang you too much laaa ;)) ' heheeh tp u tau kan i no EGO !!:D
lama nya i merajuk dgn you tk pjuk auww ;( sobb sobb again !
bilaaa dh out from that placed ,then you bru nk pjuk kn sayangg ,naughty baby !you buat tktau dgn i auww time you busy main pool now nk dgn i heh ?noo wayy !ambik kau !i mrrjukk gila gila dgn u :)
dh smpai dkt cotton on pujuk ehh trik ehh tgn i ,alololo u buat i rasa guilty laa b ,tau tau je kn i akan nak punya dgn you :) uishh !mehh laa i maafkn u :) hehe
sayngg u sgt laa , hee ,after that u kata u lapaaa ,meh meh i teman u mkn auww ,
hee u tye ea i lapar ke tk ,hee TAK !(saja auww i sbnarnya lapaa gilaa tp i nk kacau u mamam )
u beli chicken m,c deluxe :) nyummy lol :)
tgh you mkn ,hehe 'b ,i nk skit bole ?' nah !'
ishh ,u bg i mkn syur dia je !naughty lol ;)
tp tkpee ,u bg jgak knn i ngap burger you tuu :)
borak2 dgn you n eric :) hee pastuu pergi jalan2 smpai kt candy shop !hehe tringin nk mkngula gula kapas laa :) ,yayyy !dapt jgak :) thnk you saynggg :)
pastu masuk cotton on ,hee teman i beli barangg ,sayangg ..sorry buat you pening kepala teman i .hehe tp thankss auww !skirt tuu lawaa :)
nnti kua i pkai kay sayangg :) mwaah!
,mlm?tgok movies dgn baby ,sara,eric,mimi and afiq :) cite 3D!HAAHAAH:DD ambik kau !best laa sangat knonyaa :) tp whatever it is :) i hppy auww dgn you :) sangat !satu hari dgn you cm huishh :) happy :) i love you for ever wan mohd muhaimin :) mwahh mwahhh ;)

heeeheh that showed how much i love you muahimin :) mwahhh :)
xxoxox

damn !

what a life ! hmm totally disaster!sometimes i've felt that i really hate my life .its totally hurt when we stuck in something ,act its a problem and i have to faced it .it's really unfair towards me !but i guess its a test from a god i have to faced this matter.sometimes i wish i dont have anything except studies,myself and just me .plus,i dont feel like having a family is the best ever to me .maybe a lot of torture,hurting that happened towards my llife,its really damn it .i just felt that i wanna be alone ,no one stick with me,just ME !and its really hurt when someone who has a relationship with you for about 18years ,he doesnt have any trust,and always  look me down ,but when he had to be in a hard time ,he asked for my help .i guess its really unfair for me to be alive .haha i try to laugh as loud as i can ,i tried to take this matter as not a serious thing ,but when i've got to through this thing everyday and everyday of my life,my hearts felt shit ! in my heart i dont trust him ,i can't respect him as my important thing for my life,i just can call him 'suck' , 'annoying' ,' hypocrited' and so much of neg things for him !i wonder why i've felt like this.after what he did to her,to me he is nothing for me.wish i could go back to normal life !i dont ask too much ,i just want him to be an examples for them .and for me too .make me proud ,make peoples feel that he's there !make his brothers,sisters never look down towards him ,and mine .he doesnt realised it.all this time .they are nothing .look at her ,even she is not close with her siblings ,but what can i say .i've respect them a lot !cared each other,always be there when she needs help .but for this matter ,famliy thing ,he doesnt felt ashamed shared the story bout what he had to faced .why ca'nt hejust woke up ?!why can't he felt something ?!why and why ?why he doesnt want to be like another human being did something for us ?why ?i am too much depressed !seriously i am .i thought i could shared everythings towards you darl ,but i just can't .enough for you to knew him ,just like that.i'm afraid if you know what the most problem that i had to take it and put at my face,sure you will be shocked !there's a lot.a lot of things that i feel i want to do .runaway and leave this place asap !yeah ,nothing much for now ,i just need my grandmother,gives a big hug cuz i miss her a lot !but i know i have a responsible .i have to be here as long as i have to .i have to take care of her,and them .i have to .before any bad things happen .but i've really thankful to god !!:'(
yeahh ,thankss to you grandpa ,for giving all of this !if is not because of you ,a can really sure our life is going to be nothing .thank you so much,and i hope there will be a miracles .waiting for my result ,hoping for the best result,get a Uni ,and i will never see your face anymore!thats good for me and great for you . ;)

its not a good feelings,but i hate you more !

yeah !what a life !today is not the best day for me ..hm what can i say is about the time when i'm working .yeahh hell !for the first i came to work ,its totally great and not much of stupid things happen .until the SUP asked me to accompany her to go outside the placed that i'm working to buy a food .yeah!totally damn !i've really don't wanna go but i have to .followed her makes me felt that 'drop faces' .the way she act infront of the people,she talked loudly,the way her dressed up really out of mind .yea,i had a lil conversation with kak yana .yeah,she's nice and amazing girl that i've been known .talk with her until that 'crazy old woman' called me to 'teman' her .damn it !
walked with her with the embrassement feelings and a lot of things that i wanna say to her ,but i just can't and i have to keep my mouth SHUT !huh
she bought her food,porridge and guess what ?she is trying to be niced with me by treating me bubble tee water .ahaha :D i'll just took it maa . . . its a rezeki .haha
then she took about an hour just too bought her food .then after we've been reached to the placed that i'm working ,kak yana and eiyz time to break !honestly i've really dont mind ifboth of them recess together ;)
yeaa,but you know la the SUP !she is fucking damn shit !suddenly nk showed her anger towards me !uhuh!how came she told me that kak yana tu muka pecah !damn her !she's not even realized on whta she had !she'll had nothing

i heart you guys a lot !(:

        my only bestfriends ;)

mimi azmi !

teha mahmud !

mira che' azmi

izrinda rosli !

azureen roslan !

sara khairy !                                                    



there all my everything !seriously i don't wanna lose them !so GOD please don't make my bestfriend be far far away from me!to mimi ily,youre sweet,gorgeous,lovely and what can i say that youre the best !you never hurt my feelings .and i am thankful for having you as my bff lol :)
hopefully you and AFIQ will be last long for ever ;)
to teha ily,you my pretty adorable babydoll friend!hee i love the way you smile and the way you cared about me .thanks for being my bff !i hope you will stick with youre honey as long as you can babe ;) to mira ily,i love youre characters .the way you talk the way you laugh the way you act ,ahaha seriously i like it !you always makes me felt that i am your truly bff !so do they all .tysm !:) to izrinda ily,i've been known you since i was form1 !and hell yeah !ilysm !haha i know that you are such an amazing bff that i have !always be with me when i'm sad ,heard my problems yeahh thanks a lot baby !please stick with AMER for ever !he loves you !trust me :) hee :D heart you more and more !;) to azureen ily,my bff too !love the way you act,your style,your funny attitude makes me really felt comfortable to be your besties !thanks for being the best good friends to me !ily ;) and lastly to sara ily,my cutie lil friend !ahaha ily too much !seriously you never makes my heart hurt and i like the way you talk .too sweet and hell yeahh youre fluffy !;)saraa the cutest bff that i ever had !ily ;)

to my dear SIX bff,if you ever read my blogg ,hee thanks !and i just hope you guys wont forget me and always called me as your BFF because i know that mimi teha mira eiyz aween & saraa 
 cannot be replaced!!! xoxo 

26 JAN !!:) at AEON :)

yeahh !today's plan at last jd la jugak !eiyz baby happy sangat cuz birthday dia dpt disambut dgn selamat !ahaha :D
mmg all of people yg involved semuanya happy dgn girang sekali :) thanks to amer,min,aween,mimi,mira,sara,teha,anem,eric,aimran, and afiq !!! :)
 its really an awesome just now !all happy just had a laugh and smile :)
      thanks to amer yang treat us papa john pizza's :) ,and of course thank god sempat beli cake for eiyz birthday !!;)
eventhough bought last minute ,at last sempat jgak !haha
yauww !mmg eiyz suprised sgt and tk sangka that birthday dia we all celebrated !thanks to ALL yg involved yeaa ;)
  and of course to those yg sponsored tha cakes,really damn appreciated !alhmdullilah ,my plan with my BFF mnjd kenyataan !lakonan gduh haha yg mcm 'real' akhirnya dh ketahui kbnaranya oleh eiyz !
so lets me shared sweet time birthday eiyz td
lets take a look at all the pic :)

amer with eiyz !sweet couple  ;)

aween ,teha ,aimran !!      

eiyz when the timed has come ...........

eiyz birthday cakes!i guess its a coffee cakes !:p

 

             eric and min :)                        

eiyzzz:)                                                            

saraa and mira ;)                                      

aishaa !on this pic ..yeah im ugly lol  ..

anem,ME,mira,eiyz,aween and teha !:)

my morkmates ;)

me and kak yana :)

me and kak yana !the best kawan sekerja la !:) seroiusly i like the way she act !naturally adorable :) loved to see her pretty faces laugh and haha damn !bilaa dia gelak je mmg funny sangat !boleh pecah perut uh :)

what can i say about my cutie sis ni she's nice !eaa,mmg tk tipu !i really can count on het whether i had any problems !she always stick with me wherever i really need help !seriously i dont wanna lose her as my sis !yea la ,sebab dh la tk ada kakak ,and tk perna rasa mcmana tk ada kakak aite .haha apa apa pun kak yanais the best sis yg oerna i knew !thanks to god for giving me a good friends like kak yana .i do hope kak yana always gonna be the best ever !even now she doesn't have any parents ,but i always thought her as my sister .ily kak yana and i hope one day thre will be someone that can take care of you ,hopefully ARIFF :)

LOVER ;)

 
    i love you wan mohd muhaimin bn wan mohd zani . . . .
   honestly i am so damn happy to be with you !i know you always cared about me ,and you will always be with me whenever i hurt or when i am happy ;)
i love the way you makes me laugh ,i like the way you smile :) i felt like i wanna kiss your cheek and hug you tightly !thanks for be with me min baby :) i know i always hurt your feelings but i want you to know that i love you today and always min :)
you are the only one who can understand me,always be with me time i needed .always helped me wherever i need helped.i love you alwayss min :) i wish i could always stay with me .and i've really hope that i can take cared of you ,makes you smiled all the time .i wish you could always stop my tears when i cried ,always makes me laugh by making a jokes :)
lol !there's so much thing i wanna say about you,but i guess thats all for now baby .i love you thnks for everything :)
   lovemissneed you always <3

my bff ;)

                           lalalove;)
                eiyz(yizzi) !saraa(sharaa) !me(aishaa) !aween(yauween) !mimi(yimmi) <3
 but this picture is incomplete without mira(yimira) ! and teha(yeteha)
  i love SIX of you !hug kisses;)

today :)

yeahh !what a life !just now wrote somes short novel .ahaha :DD yaww !not yet finished wrote about it .panjang lagi ni but i guess i need whole day to think and get a new ideas !!yea,today's eiyyzi birthday :) sweet 18 already :) she seems happy !haha maybe because of amer la kot.yea i'm happy too !great life today ,break dgn kak yana and paan !makan kat foodcourt :)
she is so damn pretty ,i mean kak yana !heart her as my sis ;) lol !paan as usual la .di mana ada kak yana di situ la ada nya paan ,haha :DD nak kata couple bukan auww but they seems really close !mcm couple ;) ohh myy !!!but the're not !they are like sisters and brothers :)
paan pun dh ada fiance and so do kak yana dh ada boyfie,Ariff ;)
yeaa suka tgok kak yana since last sat kot.happy memanjang !yealaa if hati bru bercinta ,tgh in 'love' la tu .sweet sgt bila tgok kak yana happy !and about the kak ina yang pling i annoying laaaa kan ,haha :pp dia pun samaa laa too !tgh in love dgn 'peronda' that i've really not sured of the name !but hell !tk perlu ntk tau laa .haha
today works ,best !even byk kali kena mara dgn sup tu ,yeah its a normal thing !mulut dia mmg ,sometimes she's ok but sometimes she is such a devil !haha really not sure of her true attitude !but the most important thing that she is such a selfish person !kdai mcm tunggang langgang because of her pun dia ttp akan blame others people !for her its a small thing but hey !smpai nak blame another people because of her work mmg melampau la !damn her !td kedai sepah sgt ,but hell !dia bole break plak and gayut !time tu dh la byk gila customers but i am the only one yg kena handle everything !its okay my time !just wait and see your day ,mmg laa kau kena !bukannya apa ,seriously she is not the type yg pndai nk jaga hati orang !but tkkn parents tk ajak adab and cara nk treat people ??haihh !hopefullly la dia berubah .change as someone yang better and better !amin
oh maii !act byk lg expression lol ;)
but i really need too go to sleep right now .tomorrow full day work!but bfore that happy birthday izrinda sazlini bt rosli !!my BFF for ever !
night bloggie ;)

xoxox

my own :)

sejuta rasa hati

bab 1

memang .. aku sangkakan hidup aku ini seindah bagaikan pelangi .Namun aku tak pasti apa agi dugaan yang bakal aku tempuhi. Aku hanya lah manusia biasa ,tidak dapat menduga apa yang berlaku dalam hidupku.aku merasakan hidup ku bagai kaca yang bakal terhempas,sedih mambayangi jiwa ku dalam diriku. Hidup aku tak seindah permata ,tak secantik pelangi .bukan aku cacat bukan lah aku tidak mempunyai wajah yg sempurna diberikan olehNya,cuma hidup aku yg amat aku sakiti,amat aku membenci ini lah membuatkan hidupku penuh dengan satu kekesalan .Namun begitu ,jika ini dinamakan takdir dan ketentuan yang diberikan oleh Nya,aku terima walau perit yang aku rasakan .

permulaannya disebabkan 'dia' .cinta pandang pertama bagaikan seorang gadis bertemu teruna nya.alangkah bahagianya hidup aku bila bertemu dengannya .Cinta yang amat kuat dan kesetiaan terhadap dirinya membuatkan aku alpa dan tidak berfikir dua kali mengetahui asal usul keluarganya.'dia' punya segalanya.kereta mewah bagaikan mempunyai pekerjaan yang ama bepangkat tinggi ,gaya segak yang menawan hati mana mana saja wanita yang melihatnya.Ia,dia lah segalanya.walau dulu ,aku pernah punya perasaan pada seorang lelaki sebelum dia ,namun cinta aku ini ditolak .namun aku tabah akan segalanya.lebih menyakitkan seluruh jiwa raga aku ini,faiz seorang lelaki yang aku anggap segalanya berakhir .aku menerima kad jemputan perkhahwinan dari seorang teman baik ku,deanna.alangah terkejut hati aku ,bagaikan api yang amat membara ,aku melihat tertera nama faiz di kad yang diberi oleh teman baikki.ya allah !memang cukup apa yang aku rasakan ini !sakit bukan kepalang .cukup lagi menyakitkan bahawa deanna tahu dari mula lagi aku menyimpan satu perasaan terhadap faiz.ini lah dugaan pertama yang harus aku alami dalm hidupku ini .

Celine Dion - I Love You

this songs really mean to me!makes me thinking of you baby :)
i am so in love with you !thanks for all this time !and i never forget three words that you always said to me .i love you baby !!:)

isnt that the hairstyles is damn COOL??oh aim gee !

i love those hairstyles but i dont know if i'm suit to be short hair or long hair !

love the fringe of this long hair !!:)

what a life !

oh aimmm gee <3 !!i've really want this tube !suka sangat sangat !myboyfie saud that he wants to buy for me !yeammy ,of course i want it soo badly !:DD
first time i saw this tube !damn !teruss nak try cuz i like it fucking damn much !ahaha i know its kinda rude using that 'words' but i really wanna em ! :)
so i just have to wait my baby to buy for me :)
love oh youu min <3

waiting for 26jan2010 :)

dear bloggie ;) hee today is 18jan .can't wait for 26jan !!i did it :) buat eiyz marah and no mood dengan i .memang dia marah sangat .yeah ,because i am the caused of the big fighting between mimi <3 and mira <3 !!hee :DD
actually there's nothing lol !=.=' blurr dahh ??ahaha berlakon gaduh saja dengan besties !its all for eiyz's birthday next week ion 26 of jan :) yeaa its noy my plan ,me and sara <3 .dia yg plan supaya ciptakan pergaduhan yang logic and sangat nampak REAL!!:DD
a really good ideas from sara boo :) love you babe !!
and not my besties yang involved semua ni ,but eiyz's boyfie AMER pun involved :)
yea ,pity him sebab eiyz marah kot bila AMER kononnya ignores her birthday .of course he won't do that .i know he loves eiyz too much !next ,eric min and maybe irsyad pun ada jugak on that day (26jan)
:) my plan with sara mmg dh 50% nak jadi ,now waiting for the big day :DD
eiyz boo !!sorry yeaa ,but i just want you to know that its a big suprise for you !for you birthday !!and of course me and youre besties nak buat paling best DAY for you baby !!:)
hopefully she's not mad with me and sara for planning this .haha
if marah pun me and sara hug&kisses her ,confirm she'll be fine !!
thats all for now ,tgl lg seven days :) heee wait and see eiyzz .
toodles ;)))